My Sober Diary : Day 32 : Day 10
Double digits! It feels a little unreal, but oh so good. Nothing much has changed since I last posted but, there is one thing I noticed.
Time.
I have so much more of it. A fellow traveler, Peet, mentioned this in one of his latest posts as well. Once you no longer have the hangover mornings, angst-filled days, and evenings occupied with drink after pointless drink, you find that you do have time.
You have time to turn your dreams into concrete goals. To do the work that needs doing to turn those goals into a tangible reality. You can think clearly, you can reason logically, you have hope again.
Turns out, running towards your fears is better than trying to run away from them and facing your fears, better than trying to hide. It’s not always easy, that is for sure. But then, very few things worth doing are.
I am well aware that it is still early days but, I like the new me much better already. The fact that I can say that is a big win for me. I have more work to do, more pieces of me to heal. There is a lot I still need to make peace with, ask forgiveness for, and forgive myself and others for.
But, I will take it one day at a time, one thing at a time. And thankfully, I have so much more of that precious resource now. So, until next time, stay safe, and be kind to yourself and those around you.
